pieces of shit

Everything around me just went wrong all of a sudden

Countless and tiring meetings and events
Coursework loads that I cant even manage to handle
Thousand billion times of fight and arguments
To meet the expectation and perfectionism inside me
I cant, I am overwhelmed

I don't even manage to get a good sleep these few days
Being tossed and turned on the bed thinking of tomorrow
I don't wanna face tomorrow
I am going crazy and in deep anxiety
Do you even know the feeling ? The feeling is swallowing me gradually deep inside
The feeling that you start to lose faith in yourself and worry that you can't finish all the works and tasks on time

Please, just let me go though this.
Be brave.

I'm a messy piece of shit. Right now, right here.

i'm not tired at all

一直催眠自己
真的不累

最近烦心的事情多了
想到自己多一个学期就实习了整个大 emo
想到自己下个学期就 Year 3 了 就 Final Year 了更emo
真的就要这么 投入社会的大染缸了吗
原来自己离自己当初的目标已经越来越近了
实习竟然拿到了自己一直都很想进的 audit firm
从还没来读大学 就跟自己说了一定要努力进去
所以实习真的要好好努力了

Assignment 很多 很多
我觉得自己跟当初 Year 1 进来的自己变了好多
不好的地方是觉得自己已经被渲染得不一样了
不单纯了 人也市侩了
人长大了或许总要为自己的未来着想的吧
变最多的应该是我的抗压力吧
大学真的是要外宿才会长大
体会了很多 学会了忍耐 学会了很多很多
自从在外面住了后 跟家里人的感情好了很多很多
也才明白想家是什么
英文这几年来也进步神速 这里到处都是需要说英文写英文的环境
前些日子才被人家说以为我是 Banana 心里有点开心
说明自己的英文还不算太差嘛

做 Research
依旧要对着一堆 10多页 满满的英文字
想办法理解 再come out 属于自己的想法
我真的 真的很累了
最近的生活好累啊
好想快些结束
不想再每天奋斗到深夜 第二天又要 830 的课
还我睡眠
睡眠 睡眠 睡眠



:(


很多事情都不顺
是不是放手就会比较开心呢


是不是该认真想想自己的未来了
这样下去真的会快乐吗

Update

It's been a while.
啊嗨
我回来了
离上次更新应该也有一个月多了吧

这一个月多可谓充实开心呢
12月中考完了 大学第二年的第一个学期的Final Exam
可谓辛苦的要死
从来没觉得自己可以这么落魄
每天寒窗苦读
然后考试后全部吐了出来 然后觉得自己又一无所有了呵呵
真的好难啊
但是还是没有后悔自己当初做的决定
还记得在考试期间时常打回家
跟妈妈说我怎么读都读不完
很压力很累
结果搞得妈妈担心我跳楼
我妈妈的女儿难道有那么脆弱吗 啧啧
不过啦 First of all 我也熬过去了
成绩在三个星期后也就是前几天也出炉了
查成绩的时候手还在直直颤抖呢
成绩没有很好但比我想象中好
所以还是要继续努力 好吗 :)

考完试后接着而来的就是假期
直直放假到三月中
每个人听了都说 哇你怎么那么爽
但 经历了一个月在家的米虫生活后
不禁觉得有课业忙着也不失为一件乐事
真是犯贱的人儿呀
想做工 但是没人请我 放假时间不长不短的
问了好多工但是都无疾而终
看来我这米虫的命儿 还是得认了吧
也好修补元气
三月放完假回去又是一番搏斗了 唉唉

先说说考完试后一直到今天一个多月里 我干了什么吧
除了每天在家吃喝拉撒睡 外加偶尔跟朋友出去打屁聊天
外加每个周末跟我亲爱的出去看戏吃吃饭
我还去了两趟旅行
很不应该的花了不少钱
不过这两天旅行真的好开心呢

第一趟旅行是和他第一次的出国旅行
去了台湾
阔别几年再踏入台湾国土
感觉真的好不同呢
这次跟他的台湾行 我们顺便去那里过圣诞

那时取得时候台湾真的冷的要命
温度没有很低但是猛刮风 有时还下绵绵的下雨
差点冷死了
那个旅程是个环岛之旅 每天都在赶行程都住不一样的酒店
赶得我们都好累
我们都决定下次誓死都要自助行了 去你的旅行团

台湾的食物对我来说没什么合乎胃口
我偏爱辣但是台湾的食物都淡淡的 (对我而言)
所以我去了台湾大约3-4天就嚷嚷说想念 nasi lemak 了 :(

台湾如今是冬季
也没什么衣服好买 就算有漂亮的衣服也是厚厚的长袖
带回热爆的马来西亚是要几时穿啊啊
所以基本上在衣服方面没买到什么
反倒败了两双鞋子 (那里球鞋好便宜 ~~~ )
还有一堆的面膜 我的天 ~~
那里是仅此于韩国的化妆品天堂哪

在台湾一个星期
虽说每天赶行程
但是感恩还是让我抽空见了几位中学朋友
在异乡与同乡人共聚多么温暖啊
第一个见到的是在台中的锦洲
但可惜聊得起劲 忘了拍照
谢谢你请的台湾绿盖 但是味道真的怪怪的 哈哈哈 (希望你不会看到)

第二个 呢 是我从13岁以来对我不离不弃的知心闺蜜好友 净贤
谢谢你带我走了 新倔江商圈和瑞丰夜市
晚上还来酒店陪我睡一晚聊天 第二天早上6点还要赶回你学校
辛苦你了 谢谢 :) 爱你一直一直
如果这些年没有你我也不知道自己会怎么样
如今我们的情谊踏入第7年 未来还有很长的路呢 :)

第三呢
是临回马来西亚的前一天
在台北见了 我亲爱的 歪歪 还有虹伶 还有啊贤的brother 程伟

谢谢歪歪和 虹伶特意前来一聚那短短的两个小时
自毕业后呀 见面的机会少之又少 所以能相聚是福
感恩啦 心中的感激难以言语
还是一句谢谢 :) 爱你们 !


从台湾回来后病了两天
伤风感冒 不过我依然活蹦乱跳的继续规划两个星期后的旅程 !


从台湾回来后几天 就是 2014 年 的 12月 31 日
跨年之夜 跟他们过

也是中学的好友群们
还是要感叹啊 毕业后大家各奔东西
能聚就尽量聚 今时不同往日
大家都有了各自的生活与圈子
不再是当初在商三情打打闹闹的年轻小子了
所以我特别珍惜每一次的相聚时光

我2014年的最后一夜就此献给了你们 :)



2015年1月 11日 我们的4周年纪念日
今年已经踏入了你在我身边的第五年
我们从当初的恶言相向
到现在彼此都长大了不少
当年年少气盛的我们才17岁啊 转眼我们都21了
虽然现在还是三天一小吵 五天一大吵
但是我想 吵架或许是我们的沟通方式把? (好一个自娱方式啊啊哈)
不过呢 你啊这些年 也让我成长了许多
谢谢你这些年的陪伴 未来我也很赖皮地希望你能继续跟我吵架 嘿

我们的周年纪念就在这漂亮小小的咖啡馆里默默庆祝了
平淡就是幸福对吧
它的马卡龙好好吃
就在马六甲 Jonker Street 的某一角落
是个值得一去的地方 :)

跨年夜后过了两个星期多的米虫生活
我又再次踏上旅途
这次是与我大学的同住室友们
我第一次与朋友搭飞机是跟他们一起 (去年我们一起去了沙捞越)
我第一次与朋友搭飞机出国玩也是跟他们一起
这次就是去我期待已久的泰国曼谷之行啦 !
我们的行程中还安插了去华欣
华欣是泰国最近几年红起来的旅游胜地
距离曼谷大约2个小时的车程
那里远离尘嚣 是个值得去放松心情的地方

我们的行程6天
前两天在曼谷 后三天在华欣 最后一天回到曼谷
于是我们就这样踏上了我们的自助行之旅

我与 欣玮 嘉钰
不约而同的买了同样一样款式的球鞋
但是颜色恰恰不一样
这就是默契吧 哈哈

坐飞机时还蛮喜欢坐在靠窗位置
虽然起飞时有点可怕
但是可以欣赏窗外的蓝天白云
多么惬意
飞机外的风景真的很美

来到曼不外乎就是为了它的食物和 血拼而来
我们一个人就搏杀了20多件衣服哪
那里的衣服好便宜
这里要价马币 40多块的牛仔短裤 在那里一件 只要 20 马币
而且布料超好
一件连身裙也顶多15至 20块马币
我们差点买到失心疯了
曼谷真是女人的血拼天堂 啊
衣服战利品我就不拍了
曼谷的零食也会让人疯掉呢

曼谷的食物让我至今都念念不忘

食物便宜又好吃 

在泰国吃过的食物很多很多

让我放上一些我最喜欢的吧

食物 1

这是在曼谷街边处处都有卖的香蕉煎饼
外酥内软 非常好吃
里面包的都是融化了的香蕉
外皮淋上厚厚的巧克力酱
超好吃 ～ 我是香蕉的爱好者啊
我在曼谷就足足吃了三次


食物 2

来泰国你没吃过Tomyum 怎么能算来过泰国呢
泰国随随便便一个路边小摊都能把 tomyum煮得好好吃
但是蛮辣的 不过对于嗜辣的我来说是再好不过了

酸酸辣辣的汤里添加了数种香料调味
还放了 墨鱼 鲜虾 超好吃的
价钱也不很贵 在 马币 10块以下喔

我此番泰国行也吃了tomyum 两次
还是不嫌腻 好好吃





食物 3

这一道呢也是来泰国必点
其实就是炒果条
他们叫做 Phad Thai
这道与一般炒果条不一样
微微带辣 再撒些柠檬汁
酸酸甜甜 超开胃的

这道我也好喜欢 下次若有机会再去
一定会再尝尝




食物 4

这间 Mango Tango 是在曼谷颇有名气的 芒果甜品专卖店
来泰国就是要吃芒果糯米饭
他们家的芒果香甜美味 配上那淋了椰汁的糯米饭
真的超棒的啦

在街边也到处都有在卖芒果糯米饭哟
来泰国也一定要试一试
我个人真的非常喜欢芒果糯米饭
我也连续吃了三次 哪 ～




食物 5

这间 After you dessert cafe
是来曼谷必去的甜品店
它的招牌 honey toast 必尝
它的土司可说是外酥内软 里面还有香气诱人的奶油
虽然很胖但是值得一吃
真的很好吃
我想是我吃过最好吃的土司其中之一吧

来曼谷是一定要去的呀 ！





以上都是在曼谷的所见所闻
接下来来上传在华欣的旅程
我们去了好多地方
很多都是很漂亮很欧式风的景点
其实我写到这里我已经好想睡觉了
所以详细的景点呢我就不写了
如果有兴趣到访华欣再来私信问问我把 :)

接下来就来让照片说故事吧
这次旅程有两个情侣 所以哪
也谢谢两位美丽的小姐还有一位帅哥陪我做了电灯泡 嘿嘿
总的来说
这趟旅程真的很开心
有机会我必定再访曼谷
下次有机会我再详述我在泰国的自助行心得吧

前阵子把我的部落格网址从insta 和 fb 中删除了
也不想让自己的部落让很多人知道
有心人必然会看 :)
也不需要让太多人知道自己的事


写到这里 已经接近临晨 3点钟
也时候睡了
晚安 大家

大小事

自从上了大学后就不怎么爱写部落格了
或许是生活中的忙碌也慢慢浇熄了自己写文章的热忱
这一年多来离乡背井的生活
让我更加珍惜在家里的日子了
突然觉得自己以前中学叛逆期超白痴
硬要出去玩到半夜
然后给妈妈骂跟妈妈吵架
甚至把妈妈弄哭
现在想回去都觉得心疼
不过回头还是岸啦
当初也不过只是一个不懂事的小屁孩而已

自己一个人在外生活
也学到很多事
也放下了很多的包袱

你无法让所有人都喜欢你
不过你能做的就是
珍惜喜欢你的人
对于那些评语 何必理会
做好自己就行了
别人不喜欢你这样 那就配合他
如何还是不行 那也没办法了

在这里学会很多很多事
最深刻的就是学会很多不开心都会藏心里
有时甚至觉得自己对别人太仁慈
然后反而让自己不开心了

很多人
无论喜怒哀乐尽显脸上
有时并没有做错什么
纯粹是因为心情不好想发脾气
身边的人就成了情绪垃圾桶了
这几年学会的就是把自己的情绪都收藏好
因为不想别人成为我的情绪回收站
别人没那个义务 搭理你的黑脸对吧
只有他能成为我的情绪回收站
所以有时他还蛮可怜的
我把所有对外的怨气都发泄在了他身上
不过感谢他默默的包容
让我得以在那小小的温室中放肆

我自认自己是重友多于重色的那类人
但是有时就是太重友了
所以很容易让自己不开心
这些不开心 说起来自己都觉得白痴
所以就这样藏在心里让它自然的忘却
很多朋友总是会让我觉得稍纵即逝的感觉
我对他们好
但是他们似乎并没有像我重视他们一样那么重视我
是我想多了吗

在经历了很多很多
我珍惜这些日子依然在我身边
关心我 对我好的 你们
净贤 我7年来最好的闺蜜
我们隔着一条海一片板块
你远在台湾却依然记得陪我诉苦
谢谢你 这些年来的成长如果没有你
一切都不会那么的美好
这些年来的不离不弃 谢谢你

吴俊贤 这个爱我疼我的男人
谢谢你 这些年来的陪伴与关爱
我们一起成长 一起从幼稚小屁孩变成小大人
曾经吵过骂过才更珍惜
我脾气不好心情不好你都照收不误
喊我肥婆 却一直带我吃香喝辣
我有很多不堪回首的过去 你不介意
说只要在一起开心就好
我知道我的部落格你不会看
所以我才能放肆的写
不然你应该爽到飞天了吧

还有爸爸 妈妈
你们老了
我还有很多梦想 很多愿望想实现
大学毕业后我想去美国打工旅行
去我梦寐以求的纽约
我想去纽西兰看草原
我想去悉尼看歌剧院
但我更想趁早毕业赚钱
让你们环游欧洲
你们发鬓渐白 抹不去岁月的痕迹
却还是把我当小皇帝一样宠着
怕我累着饿着 受委屈
很多时候在外受委屈了打回家都要忍着不能在你们面前脆弱
都说自己过得很好
挂了电话就自己暗自流泪
又不想给同房室友见着
所以都在深夜里关着灯自己无声的流泪
流泪不是因为伤心 是因为想家
每次爸爸都说想吃什么就吃不用省省吃
妈妈说等我回来要煲好喝的鸡汤燕窝雪蛤给我补一补
这些话让我脆弱的武装瞬间瓦解 泪奔
我想趁早孝敬你们
什么梦想都没有关系
你们就是我的一切


考试周即将来临
或许是压力吧
人都特别的感性
今晚又得流泪了 。


大学第二年的日子可真不好混啊 好想家 。


毕

Hey.

I know I don't update my blog very often like what I used to do in the past

Most of the time when I feel like writing something but somehow there are endless stuff to stop me from doing

And now I am here again :)

I used to write my blog post in Chinese language

For those friends who follow my blog from the past until now you might discover that I have started changing my writing language

Nothing special, I just want to improve my writing skill a lil bit more

I am too lazy to upload photos about my recent life

I think my Instagram will tell everything :)

I am now undergoing my first week of my second year in degree

time flies huh, one year went away just in a blink of eyes

My memory is still fresh about how I got used to everything in Sunway University last year

but now, I am officially a second year senior student now :)

I can't imagine that I have two years left to complete my degree, getting closer to my ultimate goal, being an auditor :)

So before this week, I had been going through a one-month-plus semester break :)

It was a money burning, calories gaining break (NOOOOO!)

First of all, I went for a three-days-two night trip to Cameron Highlands with my dear and my best friends and housemates in university

We went for just one reason, to chill

We had been suffering a lot during the final exam week

so we decided to go to a quiet and cool place to chill

going to Cameron Highland is the most economic way and the most convenient way to chill

avoid from the crowded KL city 

just us :)

We actually didn't do much things there

We visited bee farm, strawberry farm, tea farm etc

If you ever went to Cameron Highlands, the events there are all about visiting these farm, right?

And the night market over the Brinchang area at Cameron Highlands!

There are quite a lot of nice food there, and DURIAN !

Overall, Cameron Highlands is really a nice place to rest and for friends gathering :)

Despite the advantages, the only disadvantage is that we had gone through a bad experience riding bus to Cameron Highlands

The road condition on the way to Cameron Highlands will definitely put you down

I vomited three times during our way to Cameron Highlands on the bus !

When we finally reached our pre-booked apartment over there, everyone was like d---y-----ing !

Overall, I really the cold-but-not-too-cold weather over there :)

and the beautiful flowersssssssssss !

After the Cameron Highlands trip, I went to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah again

Yeap, again

Last trip to KK was during around Christmas last year, with him

This time, I went to the same place with him , and his family members as well, and Jia Yee 

His father is a very good man that he always bring me along whenever they go for a family vacation

I appreciate it so much and I find myself lucky that I get to build close relationship not only with him, and his family members too :)

Kota Kinabalu ,Sabah is famous of their Sang Nyok Mee  生肉面

I tried it last time and I miss the taste so so much!

This is my favourite food in KK I can tell !

This is a must-try if you go to KK ! Highly recommended :D

For tour attractions, we visited the wetlands and the mangroves by boat

At the same time you will get to see the famous proboscis monkey in Sabah

They live wild in the jungle and they are protected under the law 

And I am too lazy to introduce other attractions in Sabah :p

please forgive me for that

I have more interest in food hahahahaaa

After the 5-days-4-nights trip in Sabah

I spent most of my times staying in my hometown, Melaka

No matter how far I go, I always miss Melaka

Melaka is a small-but-not-too-small city in Malaysia

but I love everything about it

especially food !!!!!

I always insist that the food in Melaka is the best no matter how

In fact, in my heart, Melaka is always the best :)

Spent my time hanging out with my secondary school friends

I really like the way we communicate and this mode of communication will not change no matter how long we are separated from each other

we used to study in a same class but now

everybody is staying in different states, studying different courses, chasing after different dreams

It is so precious that we can gather together and talk, at least once a year ;)

And of course, hanging out with my bestie

We knew each other since we were both studying Junior one (13 years old)

We have distinct personality 

She is a less talkative person but I like making friends everywhere

She don't eat spicy food but I can't live without spiciness

She has a weak body that she can't afford to do heavy exercises but I like many kind of sport activities and even join muaythai class in university

but somehow I think it was the different personality of ours that brought us together

we'd been in the same class for only three years

in the rest of the years we were studying in different classes

and now, we even study in different country ( she studies in Taiwan now )

we quarreled, we laugh, we share

we don't meet very often but this doesn't affect anything among us

we share every intimate things to each other

and I would do whatever I can do to protect her from getting hurt

Other than my family and him, she is the most important person in my life.

We have been knowing each other for seven years and it is still counting on :)

Thanks for being there for me, through thick and thin. 

The last trip during my semester break 

I went to Batu Pahat for three days with my dear :)

I will discuss on this in detail in next post ! :D

And now, my second year of my degree begins :)

One typical technique that almost every lecturer will use during the first week of the semester is that they always like to terrify you on how hard a particular subject is

Maybe it is true and maybe it is not

it depends :)

In my opinion, I just think that we have to do our very best

As long as you do your best, no matter how the outcome is, at least you try, right?

Try not to get tricked by the lecturer's words.

:)

The result for last semester has been released and I'm satisfied for the result.
At least my hard work pay off :)
Thanks for everything!

I hope this semester will be good to me.

And welcome September :)

22.05.14 ( Throwback ) Fatboy's the Burger Bar v Salon Du Chocolat PUBLIKA

Hey, here I am again.

I know I don't refresh my blog post very often anymore, like what I used to do.

Today, in the middle of the night, I just want to do a slight recap of my recent life :)

Look at my stressful face OMG!

Firstly, I am, sort of, overwhelmed by the pressure of my study, always. HAHAA

I have come to my last semester of my first year, time flies, huh?

I gradually get used to the up-and-down style of university life.

In university, to get a good grade, you have to work harder than anyone else.

NOBODY is gonna tell you what to do, neither lecturer nor your tutor.

There is no faster way to achieve good result, you have to do revision everyday, to digest all kind of bullshits that lecturer had given during lecture class.

And, of course, assignment.

The only experience I have had during the process of doing an assignment is, NEVER DO YOUR ASSIGNMENT ON LAST-MINUTE BASIS. NEVER!

Most of the time, you have to let go and forget about your old time during your secondary school or foundation level.

Maybe you used to be a genius, you used to study last minute but still manage to get good result, BLAH BLAH BLAH. Well, in university, all these things will never happen. (at least never happen on me)

Well, Ignore the dark side, we should take a look at the bright side. :)

I feel really grateful that I have met a gang of good friends that always are willing to stay with me through thick and thin.

Many seniors used to tell me that there is no true friends in university, most of the time you will all be alone.

However, I am the lucky one :)

Thanks for you guys, for being my loving housemates, my honest friends, my supportive coursemates.

You guys just make my university life an amazing one.

I have joined quite a number of clubs in uni as one day I realized that my future boss will definitely love to have an employee with extra experience other than good academic result. (:

So, firstly I have applied for a committee position in Sunway University Business School Student Council.

I have gone through the interview session and hmm, still waiting for the final result yet.

This is a quite fresh try for me, and hopefully they will accept me, and lemme make some contribution to the business school , please.  (Pray)

And the second, might be a little bit shocking, HAHA.

I have joined Muay Thai Club heh.

Some of you might not know what Muay Thai is, let me just do a little introduction about it.

It is a combat sport originated from Thailand. Muay Thai is referred as the "Art of Eight Limbs" as it makes use of punches, knees, elbows and kicks.

You guys may think that this is kind of a rude sport for a girl.

Well I can say, it is, but it somehow trains your core strength of your body to the max.

The main purpose that I join this club is to learn some self-defense skills and, of course, keep fit!

Though the training session is always a tough time for me, but trust me, no pain, no gain.

:)

Let's fight for a healthier body!

Lastly, I have joined Sunway Business Investment Society and applied for their committee position too.

As a member, we have to lend our helping hand during any event held by the club.

One of the recent event is the Chatime CEO Bryan Loo's experience sharing session!

How lucky I am that I had the chance to met with him and took a photo with him during that night!

He is kind of a ambitious person and he is so young and so passionate of his job that he had made a lot of future plan to expand other business other than Chatime.

Most importantly, unlike other richman, he is not as arrogant as i thought, he is very friendly instead :)

Here is my photoshoot with him! 

And everyone who attended the talk on that night will be given a cup of free Chatime per person and a burger :)

It was so crowded during that night and it is my pleasure to be one of the club members to help out throughout the event (:

LOOK.

The hall is fully occupied.

And finally, free Chatime ROCKS!

And Lastly, Selfie time.
Every event is a chance to get to know more peoples :)

Apart from that, 

most of my leisure time is well spent being with my university buddies.

Around few weeks ago, we went Publika for dinner after our finance midterm test., sort of celebration eheh.

We are totally burger addict and this time, we tried out some new stuff other than the well-known myBurgerLab.

FATBOY'S THE BURGER BAR, SOLARIS DUTAMAS, PUBLIKA

One of the special thing you can do in this burger shop is that you can actually design your own burger just like this:

COOL right?

I ordered a burger that called " WIMPY" 

HAHAAHA

With pork patty, fried egg, fried bacon and cheddar cheese inside, covered with sesame bun.

:)

And the homemade fries too! They are AWESOME!

But trust me, you can't really manage to finish them all unless you have a super giant size stomach.

At last, it tastes good! Worth to try.

Well, A photo of us. All the girls. ( The guys are going for toilet LOL)

After the main course, we were hunting for dessert!

And Here we are!

SALON DU CHOCOLAT, SOLARIS DUTAMAS, PUBLIKA

Try out their Chocolate Donut and Chocolate Crepe (Milk Flavour)

I personally think that the chocolate syrup is way too sweet for me, maybe dark chocolate will do.

But anyhow, my craving for this is totally satisfied LOL!

:)

And HEY, that's all for today!

see you guys!

 ;) (wink)